Tifa Strife, Queen Of Hentai

sexy_saba @ 2006-09-16T14:21:00

2006-09-16T13:38:06Z

Who will be coming to the 'Time to Go' demonstration on Saturday the 23rd of this month? If you haven't yet heard about it there are details here. http://www.stopwar.org.uk/
I really hope you can all make it and bring as many people are you can. If you only do one protest this year then you should come to this one as its the most important by far. It covers a range of issues and this is a chance for us to show Tony Blair exactly how we feel and how many people are unhappy with his disgraceful foreign policy. We want a proper democracy where the peoples views are the most important thing and not Bush's insatiable desire for more war.
Let me know. x

As for me I've had a lovely week. I got a lift back on Sunday with all my stuff. Gez and I managed to get it all upstairs in record time. It felt so good to move in and I really love the flat. Its the perfect place to live and I really don't mind that it is a bit further down Oxford road as I really like the area.

The highlights of the week had to be going to 5th Ave with Gez, Amy, other Amy and Emma. It was so much fun to go clubbing again. I have to suppress the desire to go out every night once I'm back at uni properly. The other highlight was Hannah's party. It was a little slow at first but Lee and I met some really interesting people and ended up getting really wasted and having deep political conversations. Hannah's room is really cool and I now have a desire to start listening to Vinyl. Maybe when I have money.
Lee and I also planned a wild night out but ended up disappointed when we ended up in Tiger Lounge first (which had completely misrepresented itself to us as a club) listening to a band who could not sing. Things picked up though when we moved on to Fab Café.

I also started my new job this week. It's dodgy as fuck, really boring, and the system has a tendency to break down. On the other hand its practically free money, a relaxed atmosphere, prefect hours and everyone is really nice. Therefore I think I'll stick with it for now.

sexy_saba @ 2006-09-09T16:45:00

2006-09-09T15:48:56Z

Every year it shocks me how much stuff I have to move 0.0

sexy_saba @ 2006-09-08T19:43:00

2006-09-08T18:44:56Z

Oh my God that was the best Hollyoaks ever!!!! :O

sexy_saba @ 2006-09-08T11:35:00

2006-09-08T10:50:07Z

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII get to go back to Manchester on Sunday and IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII got a job without even having to do an interview.

My only concern is I'll turn up and it will be one man and a video camera :S I'm sure not, they seem like a decent company. I guess I already had the experience so it didn't matter. Plus the job sounds really easy. It’s just what I wanted, something you can do without having to worry about sales with decent hours for me. I'm third year now so stress has to be kept down. I'll be doing Monday-Thursday 5.30-8.30 which is totally perfect and I think Gez finishes around then too so we can meet up after work etc. Its only minimum wage so I'll be making like £60.60 a week but thats fine. All I wanted was some kind of income over my loan.

I also got a brand new shiny phone and a much better contract. It is the new Walkman by Sony Ericsson. It can hold over 100 songs, loads of pics etc. I totally love it. All I need now is a pink cover. I planned to get one of e-bay but apparently you need tools to change the cover on this phone. The phone man in Afflex is probably the best person to go to.

It is nearly Lee's birthday and I still haven't got him anything. He seems to want an external hard drive (whatever that is) or a juicer. I doubt he would ever use the juicer, it would just sit there gathering dust... but then I could take it and have carrot juice every day :) Hmmm...

Right I have a lot of packing and waxing to do. What a fun day I have ahead of me. It doesn't matter thought coz I'm coming to Manchester soon ^_^

sexy_saba @ 2006-08-29T17:14:00

2006-08-29T16:43:27Z

Leeds was a lot of fun. I saw some great bands, met Lee's lovely friends and bought myself the cutest top that I cannot wait to go clubbing in. The highlight was totally seeing Muse. I've wanted to see them live for 4 years. I was not disappointed. Not even the rain ruined it for me, it actually added to the atmosphere. They played all my favourite songs ^_^
Anyway I had a great time, till it was all over and I realised I was covered in mud and shivering. The trip home was horrid. The bus was quite fast despite the bus driver not being able to see due to all the condensation on the windows. Waiting for our train we found a scummy little fish and chip place in Leeds near the station. I posed a question to Lee:
'would my life have been better with or without you?'
'Why do you ask baby?'
'Well before I met you there was no way I would have been sitting in a random scummy take away in Leeds at 12.30, soaked and shivering after seeing Muse.'

Anyway on the train home (which was incredibly slow for some reason) we realised it could have been much worse after hearing the plight of a poor lady who had also been for the day and managed to lose her friends and her coat containing her wallet, all her money and her phone. She had got to Leeds station, realised her train ticket was also in her coat then just by luck her friend had appeared. She would have had to busk home or something otherwise.

When we finally got home and I took all my clothes of I squeezed my thong and rain water was dripping from it. That was how fucking wet it was. I hugged the heater a lot then we got niiice and wasted. ^_^ The perfect end to a long and eventful day.

From Leeds I learnt two things:
1) I definitely prefer dance music.
2) I may not be able to camp at a festival where there is even the slightest chance of rain.

Right now I'm looking forward to moving back to Manc within the next two weeks and getting a little worried about my dissertation. Will definitely have to do some reading soon.

sexy_saba @ 2006-08-24T22:35:00

2006-08-24T21:42:57Z

Cleared it with dad and they can cope without me for a day and a bit so I'm definitely gonna be at Leeds on Sunday. Yay ^.^ I'm really looking forward to it now. I'm not sure if I should braid my hair again or not? Braids are more Glade than Leeds but my hair might frizz. I could take stuff to tie my hair in bunches just in case and take my lovely hat. Dunno if I should wear a casual top or a slutty zip top. So much to decide. I'm totally gonna take a camera this time. I can't believe I hardly took any pics at Glade.

I'm very nervous about meeting Lees close friends for the first time and possibly his brother. I hope they like me, I hope I like them! I must do my best to be lovely and charming (as if I'm not all the time). If they are his friends I will probably like them as we have similar taste in people. Though then again we do have different ideas of what can be funny. Hmmm. I'll just have to wait and see.

sexy_saba @ 2006-08-15T15:41:00

2006-08-15T14:59:15Z

There isn't much going on here. I'm of to the hospital tomorrow, then looking at a flat. Thursday we are viewing a few most places and hopefully we will take one.
Anyway here is a copy of the latest stop the war newsletter in case you were all wondering what you can do to help.

STOP THE WAR COALITION
NEWSLETTER No. 2006/34
15 August 2006
Email office@stopwar.org.uk
Telephone 020 7278 6694
Web: www.stopwar.org.uk

IN THIS NEWSLETTER
1)  WHEN IS A CEASEFIRE NOT A CEASEFIRE?
2)  LONDON PUBLIC MEETING: HANDS OFF LEBANON
3)  SATURDAY 19 AUGUST: DAY OF ACTION
4)  TERROR PLOT: WHAT’S REALLY GOING ON?
5)  ALL ROADS LEAD TO MANCHESTER
6)  MILITARY FAMILIES PEACE CAMP
7)  KEEP UP THE PARLIAMENT RECALL CAMPAIGN 
8)  WHAT PLANET IS GEORGE BUSH ON?
9)  CIVILISATION'S FACE: DEPLETED URANIUM

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1 WHEN IS A CEASEFIRE NOT A CEASEFIRE?
If the UN Resolution 1701 helps stop the killing in Lebanon and Israel, it is to
be welcomed. The chances are slim because the resolution was co-written by
Israel and has all the elements needed for Israel to continue its barbaric
attacks, which have killed over 1100 civilians in Lebanon, one third of them
children, and destroyed much of the country's infrastructure. The resolution
calls on Israel to end "offensive military operations" but Israel did not name
its army the Israeli Defence Force for nothing. Throughout its history it has
insisted that all of its military activities have been acts of "self defence".

The resolution makes no mention of the countless war crimes Israel has committed
over the past month, for example those under the Nuremberg Charter, which make
Israel guilty of "crimes against peace" for "the wanton destruction of cities,
towns or villages, or devastation not justified by military necessity" and
guilty of "crimes against humanity" through the perpetration of acts of
"murder,...  and other inhumane acts committed against any civilian population,
before or during the war...".
FOR THE TEXT OF THE RESOLUTION AND A COMMENTARY ON ITS CONTENTS, GO TO:
http://tinyurl.com/mns4m

FOR NOAM CHOMSKY'S Q&A ON ISRAEL, LEBANON AND PALESTINE, GO TO:
http://tinyurl.com/ms9rd

******************************************
2)  LONDON PUBLIC MEETING: HANDS OFF LEBANON
The consequences of Israel's war crimes for the Lebanese people will be
described by OMAR NACHABE, when he speaks at the Stop the War public meeting in
London on Friday 18 August (details below). Omar is a senior journalist from the
Beirut newspaper Al-Akhbar and an eyewitness to Israeli attacks in southern
Lebanon. Other speakers include Tony Benn and Jeremy Dear, General Secretary of
the National Union of Journalists.

ALL-LONDON PUBLIC MEETING: HANDS OFF LEBANON
FRIDAY 18 AUGUST 6.30PM: FRIENDS MEETING HOUSE
EUSTON ROAD, LONDON WC1 (opposite Euston Station)
Speakers include: 
OMAR NACHABE - eyewitness to Israeli attacks in southern Lebanon; 
TONY BENN - Stop The War President; 
JEREMY DEAR - Gen Sec  National Union Of Journalists; 
LINDSEY GERMAN - Stop The War Convenor.
See also: http://tinyurl.com/q3y4k
 
******************************************
3)  SATURDAY 19 AUGUST: DAY OF ACTION
Hezbollah has said consistently that it will stop firing its rockets, if Israel
stops its destruction of Lebanon and removes all its military from the country.
Israel's only response has been to intensify its aggression and it now has
30,000 soldiers occupying southern Lebanon. There can be no peace in Lebanon or
Israel until there is an unconditional ceasefire and the complete withdrawal of
all Israel troops. This is why Stop the War has organised a PROTEST AT THE
ISRAELI EMBASSY in London at 2pm on Saturday 19 August (see below), calling for
Israel to get out of Lebanon and Gaza. 

ALL-LONDON PROTEST: ISRAELI EMBASSY
ISRAEL OUT OF LEBANON AND GAZA
SATURDAY 19 AUGUST 2PM
HIGH ST KENSINGTON / KENSINGTON PALACE GARDENS W8 (Nearest Tube: High Street
Kensington)

LOCAL DAY OF ACTION EVENTS
We are also calling on all Stop the War groups outside London to make Saturday
19 August a day of action against Israel's continuing attacks and occupation of
Lebanon. 
FOR DETAILS OF LOCAL EVENTS, GO TO: http://tinyurl.com/q3y4k 

****************************************** 
4)  TERROR PLOT: WHAT’S REALLY GOING ON
How convenient. As the Bush/Blair wars in Iraq and Afghanistan sink ever further
into mass slaughter and chaos, as the Bush and Blair supported Israeli attack on
Lebanon achieves none of the warmongers aims and provokes worldwide revulsion
and as Israel’s daily brutality against defenceless Palestinians in Gaza
intensifies, without a hint of condemnation from Bush and Blair, along comes
"another 9/11", aimed at justifying the "war on terror" and at diverting the
media's attention from the disasters of the Bush/Blair foreign policy.

Former British ambassador, Craig Murray, who knows from the inside more than
most about the spin machine behind the "war on terror", says, "This is more
propaganda than plot. Of the over one thousand British Muslims arrested under
anti-terrorist legislation, only twelve per cent are ever charged with anything.
That is simply harassment of Muslims on an appalling scale. Of those charged,
80% are acquitted. Most of the very few - just over two per cent of arrests -
who are convicted, are not convicted of anything to do terrorism, but of some
minor offence the Police happened upon while trawling through the wreck of the
lives they had shattered. Be sceptical. Be very, very sceptical." TO READ CRAIG
MURRAY'S ARTICLE IN FULL, GO TO: http://tinyurl.com/zuccr

Whatever the truth of the latest terrorism alert, George Bush and Tony Blair's
aim in the media frenzy they have orchestrated over the last week is, in the
words of writer Jonathan Cook, "less about fighting terrorism and more about
silencing those who dissent from the West's endless wars against the Middle
East." TO READ JONATHAN COOK'S ARTICLE IN FULL, GO TO: http://tinyurl.com/htwc9

****************************************** 
5)  ALL ROADS LEAD TO MANCHESTER 
The recent events in Lebanon and Gaza highlight yet again the necessity for
ending Tony Blair's slavish support for George Bush's wars. The Labour Party's
annual conference in Manchester is where that message, representing the views of
the majority of people in this country, can most pointedly be brought home. The
TIME TO GO demonstration on Saturday 23 September, organised by Stop the War and
CND is generating a huge response across the country.

Details of coaches bringing protestors from towns and cities, big and small, are
now pouring into the Stop the War office. Local demonstrations and public
rallies are being organised by virtually every local Stop the War group, aimed
at publicising the demonstration and mobilising the widest support. Tickets for
the special London to Manchester train chartered by Stop the War are selling
very fast, whether its trade unions booking whole carriages or Stop the War
supporters buying individual seats (book yours now if you want to be sure of a
ticket). FOR COACH AND TRAIN DETAILS, GO TO http://tinyurl.com/k7jhz

Leaflets, posters, badges and T-shirts publicising the TIME TO GO demonstration
are now available from the Stop the War office. If you want to help publicise
the demonstration or to get involved with your local Stop the War group, contact
the national office: telephone 020 7278 6694 or email office@stopwar.org.uk.

Visit the Stop the War website to get demonstration updates, details of local
public events building support, coaches organised round the country, resources
available for publicising TIME TO GO, etc: www.stopwar.org.uk 

******************************************
6)  MILITARY FAMILIES PEACE CAMP
Military Families Against the War (MFAW) will host a peace camp to coincide with
September's TIME TO GO demonstration outside the Labour conference in
Manchester. Already Military Families – both those who have lost loved ones in
Iraq and Afghanistan and those with relatives currently on active service there
-- are signing up for the peace camp from around the UK. If you would like to
take part in the peace camp, contact MFAW at peacecamp@mfaw.org.uk. If you would
like to donate to the appeal fund to help finance the peace camp, you can do so
here: https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr

****************************************** 
6)  KEEP UP THE PARLIAMENT RECALL CAMPAIGN
Over 140 MPs have signed the demand for a recall of parliament for an
emergency debate on the Middle East crisis. Has your MP? If not, contact
him/her now. Details of how to do so are here: http://www.writetothem.com/.

******************************************
8)  WHAT PLANET IS GEORGE BUSH ON?
George Bush keeps on insisting that Iraq under the US/UK occupation is
progressing towards democracy and stability. Here is the reality, as shown in
the ever increasing level of attacks on the occupying armies by the Iraqi
resistance:

When the US appointed an Iraqi Governing Council in July 2003, attacks by the
Iraqi resistance averaged 16 daily. When Saddam Hussein was captured in December
2003, the average was 19. When the US handed-over "sovereignty" in June 2004, it
was 45 attacks daily. When Iraq held its elections for a transitional government
in January 2005, it was 61. When Iraqis voted in December 2005 for a permanent
government, it was 75. When US forces killed Abu Musab al Zarqawi in June 2006,
it was up to 90.

The truth is, US and UK troops increasingly stay in their barracks, because Iraq
is now one of the least safe and most insecure countries in the world, for the
Iraqi people and occupying armies alike, and will remain so until the last
foreign soldier is removed from Iraqi soil and the Iraqi people are free to
decide for themselves how they want to govern their country and control their
own resources. 
FOR MORE DETAILS OF REALITY IN IRAQ, GO TO: http://tinyurl.com/fwbkl

****************************************** 
9)  CIVILISATION'S FACE: DEPLETED URANIUM
One of the favourite weapons of the invading armies in Iraq is shells coated
with depleted uranium. An estimated 130 tons of have been used in the Iraq war
by America and Britain. A shell coated with depleted uranium pierces a tank like
a hot knife through butter, exploding on impact into a charring inferno. It
leaves behind a fine radioactive dust with a half-life of 4.5 billion years. 

Depleted uranium can enter the human body by inhalation, the most dangerous
method; by ingesting contaminated food or eating with contaminated hands; by
getting dust or debris in an open wound, or by being struck by shrapnel, which
often is not removed because doing so would be more dangerous than leaving it.
Inhaled, it can lodge in the lungs. As with imbedded shrapnel, this is doubly
dangerous — not only are the particles themselves physically destructive, they
emit radiation. 

Thousands of US army veterans, are suffering from crippling conditions, which
they insist are due to their exposure to depleted uranium. In Iraq, doctors
report significant increases in birth defects and childhood cancers. Depleted
uranium also contaminates soil and water, and coats buildings with radioactive
dust, which can by carried by wind and sandstorms. In 2005, the U.N.
Environmental Program identified 311 polluted sites in Iraq. Cleaning them will
take at least $40 million and several years, the agency said. Nothing can start
until the fighting stops.

We need to remember this, every time we hear George Bush or Tony Blair say they
are bringing "civilisation" to the Middle East.
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sexy_saba @ 2006-08-13T15:57:00

2006-08-13T15:08:27Z

Well I had to update to show of this very cool icon before the end of Big Brother.

Not much has been going on really. I've been back and forth between Liverpool and Manchester a lot which is exhausting. All the places Gez and I have seen have had a fault that would be hard to live with. I think I've managed to find a few decent places but you never know till you are actually there. Regardless I want to make a decision this week, as I'm sick of stressing about it.

Mum is doing a lot better lately. Her progress has even surprised me. I'm actually really excited about her scan on Wednesday. With a scan you actually know whats going on instead of guessing all the time like we have to now. The problem is she got a lot worse before she started to get better so the tumour could be bigger than it was at first or it could be smaller. We just have no way of knowing right now. The most important thing to me is that this chemo works. We will deal with whatever happens next.

sexy_saba @ 2006-04-11T17:07:00

2006-04-11T16:24:38Z

There are some things that I really have to say and that I should have said weeks ago but I've been very busy and tired and not had much time for the net. Thank you to everyone for your e-mails and comments and your words of comfort. I might say hurtful things from time to time, I might do things that seem insane but thats just because I'm so stressed right now. I really do appreciate that you all care and I understand that its the kind of situation where no one really knows what to say so thanks for trying. I'm the type of person who tends to think no one loves her even when its clear they do (just ask my bf). So yeah, thanks for letting me know :)

Tomorrow we are going to the hospital really early. Hopefully my mum can start the new chemo. Its the last kind available to us so everything rests on this. I'm terrified. I know we won't see results tomorrow or the day after but we have to see it within a month.

I'm gonna stay in Manc for a couple of days, that will be really good for me. Spending time with Lee and Gez always helps. I plan to get really really wasted too. ^_^

I'm sooo tired today, I dunno why. I didn't sleep too well last night but I made up for it by sleeping in till 12. I had better perk up soon. I have a looong day tomorrow. A shower will probably help. I guess I should also get some revision done before the day is over.

In a few hours I'll be with my bf again. That is such a nice thought <3

sexy_saba @ 2006-03-04T13:44:00

2006-03-04T14:05:02Z

It hasn't been a bad week at all. I managed to make a start on my essay, I should really be working on it now but fuck it I may as well distract myself a little longer.
On Monday I went to see The Editors with Lee. I didn't really want to go but I'm really glad I did. They were amazing. The lead singer seemed so humble but somehow that was sexy. He also kept interacting with the audience which was nice. Well this was from what I could see as it turns out that most Editors fans are freakishly tall. That will probably be the last time they play such a small venue so I'm really glad I went.

After that we went to Tom's, we got really really wasted and this somehow resulted in me trying to fit into Tom's suitcase o.O It was really good shit.

I think the highlight of the week had to be going to see Stellastarr on Thursday. I had seen them before but they were even better this time and Mike and Arthur recognised me ^_^ we got to go backstage and were offered an array of food and drink. They are such a polite band. There was also a guy from NME there (he was a total dick) but he quoted Lee and I for his article. It will be cool if he actually uses it but I can not stress this enough: He was a total dick and a bad person and very wasted so I'm never buying NME if thats the kind of people they employ.

The band on the other hand were SO lovely. I talked to Mike the most but that was more coz we had a lot in common. Anyway after hanging out in the Roadhouse for ages they offered us a lift to big hands. The tour bus was amazing. Really comfy and pretty. I could totally get used to riding around in one of those.
We stayed in Big Hands till close just chatting (well I was just chatting while everyone else got quite wasted). It was a lot of fun, Mike took my number and apparently we are gonna do it all again when they next come to Manchester :)

It wasn't till we got home that I realised how drunk Lee was. They had given him free drinks and he had been buying drinks and yes. I was trying to cook and he was trying to be helpful but really being annoying bless him. We didn't wake up till quite late the next day then he had to go do an essay :S

...Speaking of which I better get back to mine *sigh* but yeah it was a good week and both gigs were amazing.

sexy_saba @ 2006-02-24T22:02:00

2006-02-24T22:16:14Z

Haven't had any time to update at all. It doesn't help that I still have no proper net connection in my flat but like I said I just haven't had time >.<

Things at home are ok. Mum is the same and things aren't too tense. The scan revealed that nothing had changed which isn't bad news. To be honest we were expecting the worst so it was kinda a relief. She is on more chemo and we just have to hope that it will help.
I went to my first counselling session ever on Monday. I'm really glad I went and I'm totally gonna keep going. I didn't expect to cry but I totally did. It's weird crying in front of a stranger but at the same time she really helped me see things that were kinda in front of me but I needed to have someone point them out. The main thing I took from the session was that we all cope and grieve in different ways and I should stop worrying about how everyone else is coping and stop questioning my own methods...and I need to let go of the whole feeling so selfish all the time thing.

Apart from that things have been ok. I've been going out a lot to new clubs and I'm totally loving it. The highlights of the past two weeks would be going to see Goldfrapp and Missing at Jillys/Music Box.

Goldfrapp were fantastic, I didn't know she could actually sing so well in real life. They also had sexy background dancers. I now totally want to be a dancer on their next tour. I have a new aim in life. The tickets were part of Lee's valentines prezzy for me. He is so thoughtful ^_^ After that we went to Smile and had a really good night.

Missing was just amazing. So many rooms, so many different kinds of music. It was like a mini festival. I couldn't stop dancing and you could just get high and no one told you off. The largest room in Music Box was the best. I never wanted to leave :( Some very nice guy gave me a glow stick so I was swinging it round a lot as if I knew what I was doing. I really really loved the dancing that night. I can't wait for the next one.

The next day (yesterday) I had a cold from waiting in the stupid line for an hour (next time I'm getting tickets). I just wanted to stay in bed all day but Lee had got tickets for us to see the DJ whose CD was playing the first time we did it at his. I must really fucking love him because I still went. It was at Romp but it was so packed there was hardly anywhere to dance and there were a lot of chavs there so that didn't help me feel any better. We danced a little but we ended up going home early and getting wasted. That was fun because we ended up talking all night and bonding or something <3

Right I'm gonna go play DDR and burn some calories at the same time. Wooo.

sexy_saba @ 2006-02-12T15:07:00

2006-02-12T16:07:35Z

My tonsils are all swollen and ow :( This means I can't go back to Manchester till tomorrow. I'm gonna miss my favourite class :'( And I've been doing so well lately going to all my classes like an angel. I even won the bet Tom and I made about who could make it in to all classes. He bought me a £2 sandwich as a reward.

I haven't updated for so long. I've been very busy going to uni and going out a lot. I went to see The Strokes about two weeks ago. That was pretty awesome though I did make the mistake of wearing a little dress and knee high boots so I couldn't crowd surf. We all know what happened to Courtney Love. Anyway it was a fantastic gig. We went to the cutest little pub after and the support band was there. They told me I was thin and gorgeous many many times ^_^ Then Lee and I met up with Adel, her friend who was really nice and Gez. I think we ended up in Subspace and everyone got sooo fucked I was really jealous. lol I think the first thing I did when I got back was roll a huge joint and smoke it all myself.

It was also Adels birthday party at some point. We all went out for a meal which was nice then to Varsity. Lee decided he wasn't drunk enough by the time everyone was going home so we went to The Oxford and caught the last song of some band playing there. I had a lot of fun that night. There was some random girl there. We started talking about people we might both know and it turns out we had both been on a date with the same guy around the same time and he took us both to the same restaurant. lol at least he didn't get any sexing out of either of us :P

Last week I went to 42s and had a great time apart from nearly fainting in the middle of the club. It was way too hot and I hadn't eaten >.< but before that it was great. I saw like a million people I know. It really did look like half of Manchester had turned up. That place has got sooo popular lately. It was also good to catch up with Ross and co.

Friday I had to rush back to Liverpool though not before Lee came over for a uber quick booty call and to give me the other half of my prezzy. Prince of Persia ^_^ which is by the way an amazing game. He is so thoughtful. He wanted me to have something to do when I'm in Liverpool away from him <3

Things at home have been really shit. Mum doesn't seem to be doing so good. We will know for sure on Wednesday when we get the results of the latest scan. We just have to keep hoping and no matter what they say on Wednesday we have to keep trying to help her. It's so much to deal with. I'm really glad I start the counselling in a couple of weeks. It will totally help me deal and I think it's the right time for it. I'm gonna try my best to be at the hospital on Wed. That way I can ask the doctor everything I need to ask without have to bug dad all the time.

I'm really gonna miss Lee tonight. It actually has started to feel weird sleeping without him. I'm so glad I met him :)

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-28T19:54:00

2006-01-28T20:18:30Z

Another Saturday night and another opportunity to update. I haven't really been up to much. Most of last week was spent in bed with Lee :) Never a bad thing. I think Hank came over earlier in the week and I went to Tom's at some point.
Oh I think Martyn came over on Monday for a sheesh and we caught up properly even though he had been in Manchester for ages. Life just totally gets in the way. I went out with Lee and his mates that night. We went to some bar I didn't know and then the Sailsbury. It was so weird going there after soooo long. I didn't know any of the staff, which just seemed crazy. We had a good time though I swear one of Lee's male friends wants to steal him of me. I've got my eye on him.
After the pub Ste and Clare came back with Lee to mine for a smoke. Lee managed to make me angry enough to want to dump him on the bus ride home by showing a uber personal pic to them. He was drunk and sorry etc but I think the fact that I didn't dump him speaks volumes about our relationship... to be honest I'm really glad I didn't dump him. He makes me so happy without even trying.
Thursday wasn't a bad night either. Lee and I spent most of the evening in Tesco, which was soooo dull. After that I went The Grovel to see Gez and people. Ed was there and it was like the first time I had seen him in ages. The first thing he said to me was that I had lost loads of weight which of course made me happy. We talked for a while and it was nice. I'm always confused about how Ed feels about me. As in if he actually likes me as a person or if he can't stand me. I concluded from the other night that I think he likes me.
Anyway after that Lee and I left to go to some new club. We got there quite late and it was really empty. Thats the trouble with new places. We ended up in BaaBar as no where else was letting in. Some guy of our course was there too with his gf. I had a good time even if the music was quite bad.

Today I went shopping with my sister ^_^ I got a new Hooch dress/top thingy. It is uber hot. I also got a new tong, Playboy underwear, a new work out DVD aaand I'm sure there was something else but I've forgotten. The whole point of me going shopping was to get pants that actually fit and don't fall of me. I also wanted skirts for going out but it seemed like everything I tried on was still too big :S I'm gonna have to go shopping in Manc. The shopping there is MUCH better than Liverpool.

A couple of my friends came over today too. One of them is doing some kind of art thingy so she took loads of pics of me for it. That was a lot of fun. I do love to pose.

Right I didn't buy that new DVD for nothing. I better go see if it's any good.

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-21T22:24:00

2006-01-21T22:29:04Z

I haven't updated in ages and ages. Things have been pretty sweet. My birthday was amazing, I've been out and about a lot and my relationship with Lee is going really well. He is so different from the people I usually date or even hang out with but I really think thats a good thing. For example he took me to Romp on Thursday. In the two and a bit years that I've been living in Manc I've always liked the look of the flyers for that place but I knew there was no chance my mates would go there.
We had a really good time. There were a lot of beautiful people which is always good, good music and I got to wear my new dress. I do suspect that the place is some kind of time portal because I have no idea where the time went. One minute it was 10.30 and Lee was promising we could dance in 1 hour 45 mins for some reason and then it was 1am and we were all 'oh shit we only have an hour and a half left to dance.' When we were dancing a lot of people were going 'oohhh aren't they great' or something like that which is always nice.

I also had a really good time on Tuesday...I think it was Tuesday anyway. Lee, Tom and I went to the pub. It was full so we sat on the floor like we were at a festival or something. Gez came too at some point then we went back to Tom's and got rather wasted which I always enjoy.

The only thing that's been a bit shit lately is my emotions being all over the place and I'm sick but I think that's coz I lied about being sick so it's karma and I accept it with good grace.

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-08T00:19:00

2006-01-08T00:47:12Z

I'm 21! The crazy thing is I do feel older. Maybe it's coz I've had a hard few months and been forced to mature but I do feel older. I think I like being 21. I'll probably be taken more seriously and hey at least I still look like a teenager ^.~ I wonder if all my birthdays will matter less after this one. I wonder if I'll actually change and stop partying so much and actually do mature stuff like um read and study and things... lol probably not >.

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-07T00:18:00

2006-01-07T00:23:56Z

Comment with a number. Then copy & paste to your own LJ.

0= I don't know you
1= I like you
2= I love you!!
3= You are funny
4= You are cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I want to do you
7= You are sexy!
8= You have a nice body
9= I want to get to know you
10= I hope you die
11= Marry me, PLEASE?

Hmmm will eating crisps now make me fat? I could do some sit ups before bed...?

My sister was asking me questions like what time I'm waking up on my birthday and what time I'm going to Manc. They so have something planned ^_^

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-05T14:47:00

2006-01-05T15:07:07Z

God this house is dull. My sisters are back in school so it's even more boring and I'm too tired to go to town or anything as I hardly slept last night. Only 4 more days till my birthday and till I go back to Manchester. Yay :)

I'm feeling rather unnerved by the amount of paedophiles in the news lately. It's worrying, as if they are getting more confident that they can do these things and get away with it. I don't understand why they don't bring the death penalty back at least just for pedos. I mean ok if I ran the world if you were convicted of rape and there was enough hard evidence then your dick would be cut of. If you raped or even sexually abused a child you would be tortured and killed. It seems harsh but if the penalty is strict then people are a lot less likely to commit the crime. I don't think there is anything wrong with harsh punishments as long as you have enough evidence to prove they did do it and in cases like rape that is easy enough with DNA etc. Though at the end of the day even if the laws here allowed eye for an eye justice it would certainly make us feel better but nothing can ever give either of the two little girls that have been in the news lately back what they have lost. They might both grow up very disturbed... assuming the 3 year old doesn't die in hospital. One can only imagine how bad her injuries are.
Urgh why are the laws in this country so soft on people like that? It's the government's job to protect us, thats why they are there. Yet the sick fucks in this country are clearly not afraid otherwise they wouldn't risk it. I definitely think we need change but the government is too cowardly to do it. Maybe if there is a huge media outcry... that was pretty much how we got handguns banned. Even then I still think they are too scared to make such a huge change.
Yet another reason why I should be PM. If one person got raped a year under my leadership it would be surprising. When oh when will the UK be ready for a hot, female, Arabic PM? Probably not in my lifetime.

I think I have to take my aunt shopping tomorrow. Oh joy. I would much rather spend the entire day in the salon. Mmmm thats totally what I need. Maybe I'll go the day after tomorrow. Get my nails done, a facial, maybe a massage. Yes I think I have to. Otherwise you know... the sky will fall or something.

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-02T17:12:00

2006-01-02T17:17:16Z

As you all know no doubt it is my 21st birthday on the 8th of this month. I'm totally having a huge party on the 11th and you're all invited (unless you suck, for clarification on if you suck or not just ask.). I'm hiring out the top floor of The Footage in Manchester from about 9 till 2am. We get cheap drinks and such and there will be much dancing.

I hope you can all make it. You may bring as many guests as you like. The more the merrier.

Either comment on here or send me a text or e-mail and let me know if you can make it and how many people you'll be bringing. I shall look forward to partying with you all ^_^

sexy_saba @ 2006-01-01T16:54:00

2006-01-01T16:58:50Z

*Yawn* I'm so tired, I can barely see straight and I'm in pain from way too much sex. You know it was a good new year...Oh yes...

Happy New Year

to you all
I should be thinking about the past year and listing all the good and bad and what I would change and what I would never change etc. It's a bit difficult when you've had a year like mine. I've faced death and been tortured slowly with my mother getting so ill. On the other hand I've made lots more friends, met a wonderful guy, passed my first year (first time I've done that properly) and had a lot of fun. I guess there is no such thing as a good or bad year, it just depends on your perspective. My year has been anything but normal... who wants normal anyway? So on with another abnormal year full of joy and weed and sex.

sexy_saba @ 2005-12-29T19:50:00

2005-12-29T19:58:44Z

Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! Does going to Manchester for one night make me the worst person ever? I really need to escape and I miss Lee but the guilt! It's not fair, why the guilt trips? All I want is one night >.<' I've stayed here for the entire holiday so far, cancelled my trip three times and I've hardly left the house. Will the house really fall apart without me for one night? My dad, grandmother, aunt and sisters are here. They cope fine the rest of the time when I'm in uni. Whats the big fucking deal? Yet I continue to feel guilty, though if I stay I may go insane and then I won't be any good to anyone. I don't know... I have stuff I need to sort out while I'm there and I want to bring some work back with me as I'm so bored here... I don't know if I'm being evil or not >.<'

Edit: Sorted, I am not a bad person :)

sexy_saba @ 2005-12-29T17:08:00

2005-12-29T17:10:39Z

Yesterday was awesome. Mostly spent in bars with Martyn, Gez and some other people. I really needed to just get out the house and cill. Tomorrow is gonna be even better :)

Oh and I have to direct my fellow FF7 fans to this as it's just so amusing :P

sexy_saba @ 2005-12-26T19:44:00

2005-12-26T19:59:26Z

Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh no Manchester for me tomorrow. Ill, fainty, ill etc. I've been asleep all day. I cried when I realised I couldn't go. Then I spoke to Lee on the phone for ages and felt better. He is so understanding and sweet and such an awesome boyfriend. We're seeing each other on Friday, which kinda makes up for it but it will mean we haven't seen each other for 2 weeks straight. It's so un fair. I'm really mad at my body right now. Though he said we will just have to go at it twice as hard to make up for it on Friday, thats fine with me ^.^<3
I should be ok to at least go out and see people by Wednesday. Which is good because if I don't smoke and socialise soon I will go mad.
Today has gone quite quick as I slept all day. I think sleeping a lot is gonna be the tactics for getting through the next few days till I can get back to Manchester ^_^

sexy_saba @ 2005-12-25T17:56:00

2005-12-25T17:59:42Z

Merry Xmas All

God I am so full! So much for losing weight. The meal I prepared was fantastic. To be honest when I was making the sauce I thought 'hmmm this is a terrible idea and it's gonna taste crap and everyone is gonna make fun of me.' Then when I tasted the final thing I thought 'wow I really can cook o.O' Everyone loved it, I just hope they don't start expecting me to cook all the time.

Everyone in the house got presents this year. I got make up (yay!) and a cute little kitty with angel wings to go on my charm bracelet. I love having pressies to open. It's totally the best part (such a material girl).

Anyway yes I'm very full so I may take a nap then go see what everyone else is up to. Hope you're all having fun!

sexy_saba @ 2005-12-24T20:11:00

2005-12-24T20:13:49Z

I feel much better today though really sleepy. I just took every kind of medicine in the house (leaving 3/4 hours between each of course) and yeah I'm still coughing a bit but all the pain has gone. I may be sleepy coz I'm so bored. After tomorrow things will be a lot more interesting. I'm cooking Xmas dinner tomorrow and next week I plan to see loads of people including a trip up to Manchester to see Lee <3

Yesterday my sister, cousin and I ended up playing on the Barbie website for ages. It reminding me of the good old days when Husna and I would play on that website in our lounge (I was usually quite wasted) while smoking a sheesh and blasting the latest song we had decided was the best thing ever.

Anyway we made Barbie front cover girls and this is what the one that was supposed to be me looked like. I think it looks a lot like me ^_^

sexy_saba @ 2005-12-23T20:10:00

2005-12-23T20:16:56Z

I'm WORSE today. How can I possibly be worse? I actually drank my entire bottle of cough medicine (not all at once). I've been drinking fresh orange juice and resting loads... well I haven't been sleeping. That might be what did it. But I've been chilled. Stupid whatever the fuck it is I have. Martyn got ill the same day as me and he is better now, why can't I be?! Tom is better too, it's just me :'(

At this rate I won't get my Xmas shopping done and I might not even get to cook Xmas dinner this year. Thats so crap, I've got all the ingredients in and everything. I really want to be angry but I'm too tired to be angry.
I'm all loved up too, that kinda stops the anger ^_^<3 *surrenders to the strawberry ice cream*